Tell me baby, will you be here when I wake up?

Hi readers.

School was alright, abit sucky to be honest. But if I said that it must be hell for everyone else because I'm so used to it already. Anyways today I went to Amcorp mall with my mom and it's like this kind of old mall with tonnnnns of flea market stalls. I bought a vintage flowery dress from one of the stores and this crochet cover up which is gorgeous! :D

and then before dinner i bought this month's seventeen mag because I WANT TO and guess what? My mom judged me. again. Forever judging me and not my sister. If my sister wants to go out, oh yes please I want you to have fun. Me? OH NO YOU AINT GOING OUT. Seriously? I know, 14 isn't that big of an age but can you stop controlling my life please. My mom told my aunt that I'm always wanting to be popular because I read the fashion magazines. ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME.

Recently been addicted to nail polish and I keep painting my nails during the weekends and rubbing them off on Sunday. Wasteful but meeeeh, makes up for me not going out. ;)

I'm sexy and I KNOW IT! I like the way LMFAO says that in Madonna's song.

Dance dance dance danceeeee xx

earth hour in 30 minutes and everyone's going out to get starbucks. awman. sucksferme.

A penny for my thoughts.

If I could escape my parents, I'd do so in a heartbeat.

My mom is biased af! I can't wait to get out of this house. I want my own apartment, and my own shit. So what if you're older than me? If you want me to respect you, you had better respect me first. What goes around comes around, don't lock me up like an outlaw. You make me hate you.

Keeping it short, I lost my phone on Thursday. Correction, a few indians stole my phone. So screw you bastards. I hope they can't manage to sell it and when I beg they'll give it back. The school is uber injustice. If it was in America, this shit would be solved so quick you wouldn't have to blink an eye. Or it wouldn't be stolen anyway. I find it how bloody stupid that the school already know that these freaking indians bring trouble to school and have no intention at studying or whatsoever. How messed up is that? Go back where you belong, low-lives.

The Hunger Games is out and obviously who doesn't get to see it? Of course it would be me, who'd you think it would be? Freaking Jennifer Lawrence? So I'll probably download the good quality one online and watch it because my mom is f-ed up and won't bring me out to do shit.

Thanks for giving birth to me and letting me lead this screwed up life though. THANKS.

well, peace out. bbt with milo.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

What up readers! xx

So hey there, it's almost midnight here but that's when my inspiration goes crazy so that's that.

I'm the most awkward person on earth not even kidding. I mean to strangers and people I'm not so close to, that is. If you knew me well, I'm probably one of the craziest people you know but you don't so I shall be the awkward turtle. Until you get to know me that is. :)

So right now I feel like swimming midnight! Obviously I'm not going to because no one will and my parents won't let me, lol. I guess you could say today I'm in one of them creative moods and decided to look up on how to make your own pillows and turns out it's hard as shit. So screw that thought. But I did fine a super vintage blog and fell in love with it but I forgot it's link so yeaaaah.

So I told my crush he's pretty. But wait, who does that. I ran out of things to talk so I become miss full of interesting shit. Don't blame me. Oh yeah and I found about this amaaaaazing thing called.. wait for it, UTORRENT. Pirate bay bitcheeees! But then obviously I downloaded tons of shit and then my brother complained about the internet speed, found out about my torrent and scolded me and stuff. You see, stupid maxis only allows us to download or whatever thing until a certain amount then after that the internet will get SUUUUUUPER SLOW until the end of the month. :/ Woops! I didn't know anything about torrent that's why. I just thought OH CAN DOWNLOAD AND IT'S FREE AND THE QUALITY IS AMAZING, OKAY YES. That's all, lol.

Eh, I ran out of things to talk and just asked my crush if he's gay. Okay this it. I'm such shit at trying to flirt. I AM SUCH A DORK

goodnight lovelies

xx

Rants & stuff.

So, hi guys!

Yeah, it's the hols! Woopadoodlyyypump.

Not as excited as I would be, why you asssssk. I'll tell you later.

Anyways, lately I've been into like make up & stuff. Yeah, I know I'm not a girly girl and I can't even paint my nails right, I'm such a fail at being a girl. But every girl has it in her, I believe. So I've been watching so many make up vids and I'm super inspired! But obviously in Malaysia we don't wear make up at this age. Or to school. Or maybe you do but not everyday, ah whatevs. So the main point is, if I go out wearing make up I'd probably be stereotyped as wannabe? Possibly. Not that I care buuuut if I saw a girl my age wearing make up I'd probably be all.. judg-y and all. I can't help it, probably everyone does it too.

Next thing, I'm not sure if I still wanna attend Christian Fellowship (CF). I want to but sometimes it's just so awkward for me as none of my friends want to accompany me there. Yeah, it's cool. Not like I ever accompany them to anywhere. I'm kidding. But anyways. I do have a few friends and my sister goes sometimes but it's kinda intimidating you know? Being alone-ish sometimes. I mean Matthew is there but obviously he has his friends too and then when my sister doesn't go I'm just like wheeawkwardturtleyaythisisfun with myself. Awkwaaaaard. Mhm. I know I should go there only for God and not to make friends or whatever. I mean yeah, make friends too but the main point is to be with God but sometimes you just need to know you have someone with you..

Sooooo here we go, why I'm not excited for the hols? Two words. MY. MOM.

Normally other teens' hols would be all fun, going out watching stuff, shopping and shit.

Me? Pft. My mom is forever banning me from going out like I'm a freaking outlaw! Seriously, I'm fourteen. I know it's not that big of an age and I understand if you don't let me go swimming and stuff. BUT I HAVE ONLY BEEN TO THREE OUTINGS IN MY WHOLE LIFE AND YOU WON'T TRUST ME? Shit. I can't contain my anger when it comes to this. Why don't you trust me?! We're Christians, we're supposed to have trust in the Lord in these things and not go and think that I'll get kidnapped slash raped by some psychopath alright?! Once in a while, I ask you and you say no. And when I ask why? "Oh, you're forever going out with your friends." What? 3 outings, my whole life. How am I FOREVER going out with my friends?! if idk, 15 hours means forever to you, wtf to that. And then when I try to prove my point that I'm not FOREVER going out, she says when my sister was 14 she never went out. Are you freaking kidding me, do we really need to have this conversation?.. THE FREAKING GENERATION IS FREAKING DIFFERENT FOR FREAKING SHIT SAKE. Next point, when I ask her if we can go out she's forever saying either she's tired or she's way too busy with work. If she's tired, fine, I get it. But she's freaking FOREVER BUSY WITH WORK LIKE WHAT THE HECK IS THIS? I DON'T GET IT ALL. If you don't want me to go out with my friends incase I get raped then at least let me go out with you or something. DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE KNOWING THAT MY WHOLE LIFE IS STUDIES AND THE HOUSE?

That was a long but much needed rant.

Goodnight readers, x.